Saturday, January 9, 2010

Away from her

Isn’t it true however far we have wandered into our provinces of persecution, where our regrets accuse? We keep returning back to the common faith from which we have all descended; back to the hands, the feet, the faces. Children are always there and take the hands, even when they are most terrified. Those in love can not make up their minds to go astray. Our distant doctor returns most often. Only the mad will never, never come back. For doctors keep on worrying while away, incase their skill is suffering and deserted. Lovers have lived so long with giants and elves they won’t believe again in their own size and the heart prays ever so gently. Let me find pure all that can happen. Only uniqueness is success, for instance, let me perceive the images of history, all that are pushed away with doubt and travel. Today’s and yesterdays are like bodies. The desires of the heart are as crooked as scorched grieves. Not to be born is the best for man. The second best is the formal order; the dances pattern. Dance while you can. Dance, dance for the figure is easy, the tune is catching and will not stop. Dance till the stars come down from the rafters, dance dance, dance, dance till you drop.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Beyond Planning

Some things are beyond planning.

And life doesn't always turn out as planned.

You don't plan for a broken heart.

You don't plan for a failed business venture..

You don't plan for an adulterous husband.

or a wife who wants you out of her life.

You don't plan for an autistic child.

You don't plan for spinsterhood.

You don't plan for a lump in your breast.

You plan to be young forever.

You plan to climb the corporate ladder.

You plan to be rich and powerful.

You plan to be acclaimed and successful.

You plan to conquer the universe.

You plan to fall in love - and be loved forever.

You don't plan to be sad.

You don't plan to be hurt.

You don't plan to be broke.

You don't plan to be betrayed.

You don't plan to be alone in this world

You plan to be happy. You don't plan to be shattered.

Sometimes if you work hard enough, you can get what you want. But MOST times, what you want and what you get are two different things.

We, mortals, plan. But so does God in the heavens.

Sometimes, it is difficult to understand God's plans especially when His plans are not in consonance with ours.

Often, when God sends us crisis, we turn to Him in anger. True, we cannot choose the cross That God wishes us to carry, but we can carry that cross with courage knowing that God will never abandon us nor send something we cannot cope with.

Sometimes, God breaks our spirit to save our soul.

Sometimes, He breaks our heart to make us whole.

Sometimes, God allows pain so we can be stronger.

Sometimes, God sends us failure so we can be humble.

Sometimes, God allows illness so we can take better care of ourselves. Sometimes, God takes everything away from us so we can learn the value Of everything He gave us.

Make plans, but understand that we live by God's grace.

Locked up

The one that my heart desires,
Is already taken.
My heart is imprisoned
By this love
That can never be.
So every night
I kneel beside my bed
And ask God
To set this captive free.